I’m planning to walk by the street where you live. Stare at your car and leave coz I know I don’t have a choice but to walk away; no matter how much I miss you, I don’t have any rights to stay.

hindi ko alam kung anong nangyari saken pero feeling ko na shut down yung emotions ko and yung sensitivity ko at pati yung heart ko. I feel so insensitive. I suddenly become a woman that’s so heartless. Can you imagine how terrible human being I am? lahat ng nagbabalak manligaw saken, hindi pa nagsisimula nasa freindzone na agad. hindi na ko natutuwa sa mga ka-sweetan ng buhay. hindi ko na din pinapangarap na maging in-a-relationship. hindi din ako kumportable na may nag-eeffort para pa-ngitiin ako, makita ako or whatever. hindi din ako natuwa sa mga little sweet nothings. In fact I’m not a fan of any boy and girl relationship thingy. hindi rin ako fascinated sa romantic love; I don’t believe first love, true love or unconditional love. I only believe first sex, first kiss, first hug and etc. pero hindi ako lesbian but I still support third sex. And no one believe that a girl can be happy without being engage in any relationship thingy. Pag na-inlove ako ang daming sacrifices ang dapat kong gawin and I hate it. I hate losing my time for myself, I hate losing my vices, I hate losing my freedom. I hate commitment. I think I made myself clear.